Friday, May 13, 2011
hello!!! :)
Hey everyone! So I've had this blog for about 4-ish months and I haven't written anything because I had no idea where to start... so I'm just gonna go for and write whatever comes to my mind!
This past weekend I went home for mother's day and one of my best friend's weddings! Kennie got married!!! I am so happy for her! :) She looked absolutely gorgeous! I went to her reception kind of knowing I was going to end up crying by the time it was over (my "special friend" that comes around once every month was visiting me and let's face it... I'm just an emotional wreck when it comes to that time of month). I was doing great, other than being a tiny bit jealous of Kennie because I was wishing that I was getting married, until the daddy-daughter dance. It was a really sweet moment. I was sitting there thinking how cute that was and then it hit me that I won't get to do a daddy-daughter dance at my wedding and the flood gates were opened. I have always known that my dad wouldn't be there physically when I get married but it had never hit me as hard as it did then. There are so many things that my dad won't get to be there for in person that are all coming up quickly in my life like he won't get to be there in person when my boyfriend asks for my hand in marriage or for my wedding in the temple, he won't be there to do a daddy-daughter dance with me, he won't be there in person when I have my first child.... and the this list goes on. I know he will be there in spirit and I'm truly grateful to know that but it's just not going be the same... I had a small break down on Sunday about this (Yup i was crying about my dad on mother's day. I'm that ridiculous. Sorry mom!) but then I realized it is because of temple marriage like the one Kennie just had that my family will be together forever.
The trials I have been through were hard and always will be hard for me but I honestly don't know what I would do without the knowledge that I will be able to see my dad again someday. I am so grateful that I am a member of the LDS church and that I know that my family is forever and my future family will be a forever family too. I am so grateful for my Savior's atonement and resurrection that made it possible for me to have an eternal family. I can't wait for that day when I can go through the temple to be married and seal to my future husband and make those sacred covenants with him...hopefully it will be sometime soon!!! :D
This past weekend I went home for mother's day and one of my best friend's weddings! Kennie got married!!! I am so happy for her! :) She looked absolutely gorgeous! I went to her reception kind of knowing I was going to end up crying by the time it was over (my "special friend" that comes around once every month was visiting me and let's face it... I'm just an emotional wreck when it comes to that time of month). I was doing great, other than being a tiny bit jealous of Kennie because I was wishing that I was getting married, until the daddy-daughter dance. It was a really sweet moment. I was sitting there thinking how cute that was and then it hit me that I won't get to do a daddy-daughter dance at my wedding and the flood gates were opened. I have always known that my dad wouldn't be there physically when I get married but it had never hit me as hard as it did then. There are so many things that my dad won't get to be there for in person that are all coming up quickly in my life like he won't get to be there in person when my boyfriend asks for my hand in marriage or for my wedding in the temple, he won't be there to do a daddy-daughter dance with me, he won't be there in person when I have my first child.... and the this list goes on. I know he will be there in spirit and I'm truly grateful to know that but it's just not going be the same... I had a small break down on Sunday about this (Yup i was crying about my dad on mother's day. I'm that ridiculous. Sorry mom!) but then I realized it is because of temple marriage like the one Kennie just had that my family will be together forever.
The trials I have been through were hard and always will be hard for me but I honestly don't know what I would do without the knowledge that I will be able to see my dad again someday. I am so grateful that I am a member of the LDS church and that I know that my family is forever and my future family will be a forever family too. I am so grateful for my Savior's atonement and resurrection that made it possible for me to have an eternal family. I can't wait for that day when I can go through the temple to be married and seal to my future husband and make those sacred covenants with him...hopefully it will be sometime soon!!! :D
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